I went for a haircut today! I used to have long hair with golden dip-dyed tips and now its gone~ Its a mix of feelings, to be honest. I miss having long hair but it has been a while since I’ve had it short as well. Oh well, it’s not as if my hair will never grow back. :)
Today was spent making bad ramyeon (one of the worst I’ve made so far)… Some days, even instant food can’t seem to work with me. Aha. :’) Then in the afternoon, I met up with Joelyn! That’s when I cut my hair- the frizzy hair needed to go! We dropped by our alma mater to get some documents but I wasn’t allowed in because of my flip-flops. The security guard wasn’t very nice about it though! *annoyed* Anyway, once Joelyn came over, she got a call from TP’s Visual Communications! Congratulations~ It was a mere 20+ minutes after the deadline for the JPSAE submission and that call came pretty quick. The interview’s tomorrow so I hope it goes well! That’s all she ever talked about, haha. I hope I’ll get a call too! Or even admission to TP’s Psychology without getting an interview. That’ll be…… Miraculous. I LOVE YOU T48.
I hope I didn’t jinx my chances of getting to a course I want.
I need to cook something new soon. I’m thinking jajamyeon (again) or something with my Xpress Redi-Set-Go! Don’t know what that is? I got it for Christmas (WISHLISSSST) along with a large earthenware pot. I’m a sucker for kitchen appliances. Should I refer to myself as a gastronomical geek?
On a side note, I dug up an old version of a SONY digital camera. Okay well maybe it isn’t all that old but it’s a little…. Slow. I shall use that to start capturing memories and the beautiful things around me! So excited~ I can finally document my cooking journeys and adventures with my friends and family. Heehee I’m all pumped thinking about cooking. I really am a sucker when it comes to food. f00d FOOD F00D mmmmmm. Thank you for reading.
I’ve always wanted to be that kind of person who could blog forever and never run out of things to say. In fact, I have a lot to say but I’m just too lazy to put them into words. *lazy* Well, it being a brand new year, I’d like to try it out again. Here it goes.
Today went pretty normal as I stayed at home. However, the interesting part was during the submission of my choices for JAE and JPSAE. As I typed in the course codes and submitted them, I realised that I had determined my future for the next few years. No turning back and making amendments (or I’d have to pay :P)! I filled in all 12 options that were related to psychology, food and science, law and early childhood. Really got my fingers crossed! I hope I don’t get kicked to the bottom and end up in my last few choices. I don’t want to be in early childhood, to be honest. I can’t seem to deal with or learn about kids 24/7 (unless they’re mine). Or maybe that view of mine could change soon! Who knows~ Anyway, I REALLY want to learn about psychology and TP is my first choice. I can’t foresee myself doing well in something I cannot absorb… I must get in through JPSAE.
On top of that, I had a little conversation with my mom about how far I’ve progressed ever since I took my PSLE results. I got 179 and that was such a bummer for me, considering the fact that my sister and closest cousin got way above the 200 mark. I was the only one in NA and it didn’t feel very good to know that I had an “extra year” and was “wasting mummy and papa’s money”. It sucked big time. Didn’t really get to me until I was in secondary 3 where Mr David took over my class. I was in the middle NA class and I felt as though I was always in the middle, producing mediocre results and living that way as well. I’m not sure if Mr David inspired me to do well or the fear of N levels, but I started trying a little more that year. From F9s, I went up to a C6 or C5. It felt like the greatest achievement that I could EVER get. On to the next year, it was the N levels. I must say I faced problems during the examination period and it was a time where I felt extremely lonely. I took to studying and going home straight after school, seeking solace in the presence of my family members instead. Bazam! I scored 8 points and got my face on the screen. I never knew that was possible. An underdog like me. I cried instantly, thinking about how much I used to feel like a failure. I was never the smart friend. I was never the one that people asked for answers from. It didn’t feel good knowing that.
Fast forward to the next year, I thought that maybe it was possible to do well during the O levels. If I just tried a little more, I thought. Being in the first secondary 5 class put pressure on me as there was underlying competition from all the smarties. I slackened a little through the year but bucked up during the last 3-4 months before my O level papers. I have to admit, I was getting acne all over again and losing my hair due to stress. It was the most gruelling period of my life (so far) and I really felt as though my efforts would go to waste. I probably had this thought in me ever since I was an NA student, that I could never do well or always be at the borderline of success. 2 days ago, I got my results. My name went onto the screen and this time, it was even more unexpected. I didn’t actually get my dream score, but I sure did make my family proud. Nothing feels better than that. I came to realise that I am a late bloomer and that learning something I want in poly is actually possible. I don’t have to subscribe to the norm of NA students feeling lost after O levels anymore. I should start believing in myself even if no one believes in me. I am finally proud of myself. I may not be the best, but I have tried my best and that’s all that matters. I hope this is just the beginning of what’s to come. Exciting.
If there’s anyone feeling doubtful about themselves because they never thought they could do greater… This is for you. You are far more capable of doing things than you actually think. Harness your inner abilities and fight on!